1/21/2014

birthday reflections

be a hero in your own life

Hi! There has been so much going on the last week and a half and I needed to take a break. I feel refreshed and ready to start writing here again. Thank you all for your patience and understanding.

Today is my birthday. I never really make a fuss about it as I like to take much of the day to go within. One of the best birthdays I’ve ever had was turning 30 during a silent meditation retreat in Northern California. I wanted to start this decade of my life with as much intention and stillness as possible. That retreat was intense and life changing to say the least ;)

To be honest January has been a challenging month thus far. It’s hard to believe we are only 3 weeks into the New Year and so much has shifted. As you know my grandmother passed away earlier this month and I am still sitting with that giant loss, that heaviness in my heart. Grandmothers are such a treasure and losing her in a way felt like I lost part of myself, my history. I’ve been thinking about my Dad daily, feeling waves of empathy and sadness for him. Just the thought of losing my mother breaks my heart.

Yesterday I had to make a decision to leave a job where I taught for nearly a year. It was incredibly hard to walk away from such a beautiful community of amazing students, but I know deep down it was the right choice for me. Sometimes the hardest choices are the ones that push us out of our comfort zones, they push us further out into the world and make us less afraid to really go for what we want.

With these bittersweet feelings in my heart I am grateful that I can be in the moment, feeling everything. I am proud of myself for showing up for my family and for my work with integrity and love. I’ve come a long way in my own growth to be able to handle these uncomfortable times with grace.

And this is why I continue to practice. I breathe, and meditate, and practice yoga because it softens me and leads me to compassion. I practice because it gives me the strength to be honest and helps build my trust muscles. I practice because I need a daily reminder that I am an awesome person and have so much to offer the world. I practice because I am willing to do whatever it takes to feel free, generous, and joyful.

There is something incredibly liberating about walking away from what you are not in alignment with. Relationships, work, whatever it is. There is infinite power in carving out your own path. When we step up and step out, creativity has a chance to come in and we can truly begin to manifest what we want most.

I am grateful that I have such a loving family, wonderful friends, and a supportive community. You all have lifted me up so much this month and I cannot thank you enough. Thinking about you all inspires and motivates me beyond measure. Thank you for making my life colorful and rich.

With all of the love,
a

PS // If you are in Los Angeles you can come take a birthday yoga classes with me today at The Raven for free! 4:30-5:30pm. It will be a well balanced class with a calming restorative pose at the end. xo

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