For the last few days I have meditated with the intention of keeping my heart open. There are so many instances during my waking hours where there I have two choices – to stay open or to shut down. Lately I have been paying more attention to the things that make me want to shut down and it is safe to say that they are mostly related to external events and feelings. I don’t want to live where my happiness is contingent on events or how I might feel at any given moment. Events and feelings change often. Why should I allow them to keep me shut off from the richness of the present moment?
The more I practice meditation and yoga the more my heart opens. These powerful practices reveal the truth to me every time I engage in them. I can see how disturbed my mind is, constantly trying to arrange people, place, and things so that I can feel comfortable. I watch the habitual string of thoughts that over and over tries to convince me (sometimes with success) that happiness really is over there.
Happiness is really here, in the present. Keeping my heart and mind open allows happiness to flow in regardless of what is going on around me. Of course life will happen. People leave or die. Our hearts break. Our limits are tested and at times we are pushed to the edges of our darkest hour. Even in those moments we have choices. We can collapse and crumble and wallow or we can stand tall, open up even more, and bring light to the darkest places we know.
I want to keep my heart open, now matter what. I want to live on the edge of my comfort zone as much as possible and challenge myself to take risks everyday. When things come up and I get sad or hurt or uncomfortable I want to face it all with courage and strength and I want to grow past it because I know I am capable of that. And even in the moments (and there are many) when I forget how magnetic and strong I am, I will keep living on the edge of my comfort zone because that is where life happens.
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