11/18/2013

keep seeking

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Hi there! It’s a cloudy Monday in Los Angeles and I am happy to be having a slow morning. I had a great weekend and wanted to share it with you today. On Saturday my boyfriend, Jason and I co-taught our first workshop together at my home yoga studio, The Raven.

Jason and I started planning our restorative yoga and acupuncture workshop last month and it was awesome to see it finally come together. It was sold out at 12 people and we could not have asked for a sweeter group. I was nervous in the days leading up to the workshop as I have never done anything like this before with a significant other. For me it was very intimate sharing that part of my life with him. Taking the group on a deeply healing journey together was an experience I will never forget. I am so grateful to be in a relationship with someone I can work with in that way. It has always been a dream of mine and I love that it is now a reality.

Last night Jason and I watched the documentary Bill Cunningham New York. Wow. I remember when it came out in the theater right before I left for Berlin in 2010 and I wasn’t able to catch it on the big screen. Well it’s been on my list since then and it was the perfect movie for me this weekend. Bill Cunningham pretty much invented street fashion photography as we know it today and at 84 years of age is one of the most inspiring people in the fashion world.

What I loved most about Bill is his kind spirit. He photographs all kinds of people in New York, he could care less if they are famous or not he really is all about the clothing. You can tell from his giant smile and almost childlike nature that he is a genuine person with a huge heart. There is also this very palpable element of sadness in his life. Bill is a loner, on the go all the time, in many ways it seems he is avoiding some very painful parts of his life. In many ways I can relate to him and I think that is why he resonated with me in such a deep way.

During his speech in Paris in 2008 he said this quote I have pictured above. He cried as he spoke these words and I cried too. So much of my life has been a life of seeking. When I was younger it was about seeing pleasure to avoid pain. Today it is about seeking to ground myself in the present and be useful in the world. This quote reminds me that the work is in the seeking and if I keep going no matter what, like Bill I will find exactly what I am looking for.

xoa

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