Good afternoon! It’s the middle of the week and the post today is all about getting out of your own way. For much of my life I operated from a place of fear. From the time I can remember I felt weird and different and like there was something fundamentally wrong with me. It’s like I was hardwired to constantly live in a state of doubt and lack. I also felt incredibly empty and no amount of anything (food, people, drugs, traveling, education) could fill it up.
Over the years I have learned that my issues are not about what I do or don’t have. In fact, they aren’t even really about me and what career I think I should pursue or the fantasy life I am supposed to be living or could be living if everyone would just do what they were supposed to do according to me. Long sentence, but do you get where I am heading with this?
The major thing that I have come to understand in the last handful of years is that it is paramount to my health and happiness that I continue to develop my spiritual practice. This is the only thing that is going to give me the fearless and meaningful life that I crave regardless of anything external and even regardless of how I feel from day to day or minute to minute.
In order for me to grow on my spiritual path I must be willing to get messy and vulnerable and no matter what, out of my own way. In recent weeks I have debated on going back to school to further my education. While this is a great thing to do if it’s what I truly want, I know deep down I have been doing this outside research partly to distract myself from what is actually happening in my life right here right now. After getting honest with a friend about it this morning I reset my intentions and am back working on what is in front of me, the work that needs to get done today.
I realize that putting one foot in front of the other and doing the next indicated task aren’t the most exciting or flowery spiritual instructions but it’s honest and it’s what is going on for me right now. I know from past experiences that when I get out of my own way awesome things happen even if they aren’t exactly what I had in mind (or even close in some instances!). If I want the universe to flow through me I have to allow that to happen.
Just for today I am going to get out of my own way.
Just for today I am going to trust there is a plan for me even if I don’t feel it to be true.
Just for today I am going to focus on the tasks at hand and complete them as well as I possibly can.
Just for today I am going to follow through with my intentions.
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