Friday Feels 21

Where I’ll be hanging this Sunday.

Janet Mock’s podcast is all of the things.

The thunderstorm sounds that have been putting me to sleep.

Kelly’s book is gold, her explanation of blood sugar regulation is essential.

The ultimate feminine energy tonic.

This astrology forecast, woah!

The new Rhye track on repeat.

A cute motel a few hours north of L.A., get a room with a claw foot tub.

The memoir that is inspiring me to get back to my writing practice.

Beyoncé revealed her babes today.

The adrenal fatigue myth. (Thank you Lacy!)

My new workshop at The Parachute Hotel.








Friday Feels 20

Friday Feels 20 x Ashley Neese

Happy Friday friends! I want to take a moment to thank all of you who are continuing to show up and check out the journal when I haven’t been posting each day for over a month. I am in the middle of some major life transitions right now and haven’t had the energy to post. I’ve been writing behind the scenes this past week and will share some new essays and posts in the coming weeks, promise!

This journal has always been, and will continue to be a reflection of what is happening in my life and lately life has been incredibly challenging. It is all for the greater good, but has required me to take a step back and really nurture myself in new ways.

Here are a few things I’ve been into this past week. Thinking of you all and sending so much love. More very soon. x


Horoscopes are on point again!

So excited for this girl power movie.

The large scale artist exhibition I am definitely going to see this summer.

A must read for women interested in healing with herbs.

God I love this series, this one is especially epic.

Cannot wait to eat at this cafe next time I am in L.A.

A gorgeous seasonal cookbook.

The simple tote I carry everywhere.

Redwoods super close to home.

Giving my liver a little extra love at night with this plant.

Our favorite Japanese food in San Francisco.



Friday Feels 19

Friday Feels 19 x Ashley Neese

A new spiritual podcast about re-examining the everyday by one of my favorite artists.

These gorgeous shelves are going into our library/meditation room.

A beautiful interview with my partner Nic about his apothecary.

Excited to be collaborating with this epic wellness platform, details soon!

Many of my favorite L.A. restaurants all in one place.

The organic essential oil company I use in my personal and private practice.

Nic and I are reading this super helpful book my Dad wrote about understanding investing.

The young Hollywood medium I am obsessed with at the moment.

A spring and summer cookbook that is inspiring me to get back into the kitchen.

I can’t stop listening to this new track.

Heading over to the west coast gem show this weekend.



Photo x Anaïs & Dax



Gratitude List 28

Pausing to write this list and reflect on the day.
Endings and beginnings.
The certainty of cycles.
Overcast skies.
Getting the dog riled up on our walk, she always makes me laugh.
Missing our cosmic cat back in Oakland.
Sharing my life with such incredible beings.
Friends who take care of themselves.
Socially responsible investments.
Seeing a future that feels more like me.
So much growth it’s unbelievable.
Waking barefoot on the grass.
Praying to something bigger and more powerful than myself.
A quiet moment of contentment.
Awareness of subtle energetic shifts.
Watching my clients take huge risks and open their hearts up to receiving even more.
Reading my Dad’s book again and feeling the writing lineage of my family.
Being a teller of stories and a seeker of knowing myself in new ways.
Opportunities on the daily to practice compassionate patience.
Big, life changing, things on the horizon.
Feeling into how giant it is right now.
Karmic clearings.
Putting my most honest foot forward.
Hawks on light posts.


Doing It Imperfectly

Doing It Imperfectly x Ashley Neese


Giving myself loads of room to make mistakes this week, particularly my intimate relationships. Over the years I’ve learned to take major risks in all areas of my life and now I’m moving into this phase I’m calling subtle mastery. I know, and I feel it in my body when I’m not being 100% transparent in my closest relationships.

The other night Nic and I had a heated discussion that turned into an argument in the car. I felt my energy rising so much that I jumped out of the car, slammed the door and went into the hotel room. I immediately took off my sandals and started pacing. The tension was rising at such a rapid pace, my heart was pounding and I was muttering under my breath. After about two minutes of that I paused and took in a huge inhale. I held it for a long while then exhaled. In a matter of seconds I saw the choice I had made in past relationships flash before my eyes. I’d get into the shower, continue to let the tension mount and by the time he came into the room I’d be so activated that I’d try to pick a fight or totally shut down.

Right after those images I took and held another deep breath. After the exhale I tuned into my heart and it told me to go out to the car, apologize and be honest about what was really going on with me.

When I got back into the car my energy was completely different. No longer activated and defensive I become open and vulnerable. In that space we were able to have a deeply healing conversation that shifted the course of our evening and well into the next day. And the more I write about it the more I see just what a major impact it had on my heart, nervous system and capacity to shift super old, way outdated programming in just a matter of minutes.

In a future world I hope to be able to not have to get out of the car, slam the door and have that process but I have zero shame about any of it today. What I learned through that somatically began the work of integrating at a new level for myself and for our relationship. By taking just a few breaths I was able to shift my energy and ground myself to be able to show up the way I really wanted to that night, for myself, for Nic and for the foundation we are building together.

So this week I’m setting the intention to not do it perfectly but to show up with heart, with spirit, and with my full breath. Because the truth is I’ve got this and so does he. All my heart. x